entropy

Ashes and Wine

ashaangel — 2009-08-14T07:25:22Z

Don't know what to do anymore
I've lost the only love worth fighting for
I'll drown in my tear storming sea,
That would show you, that would make you hurt like me

All the same
I don't want mudslinging games
It's such a shame
To let you walk away

Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?

Don't know if our fate's already sealed
This day's spinning circus on a wheel
I'm ill with the thought of your kiss
Coffee laced intoxicating on her lips

Shut it out
I've got no claim on you now
Not allowed to wear your freedom down

Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?

I'll tear myself away
That is what you need
There is nothing left to say
But

Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?
The day's still ashes and wine
Or are we ashes?

(A Fine Frenzy)

Crying in the rain

ashaangel — 2009-08-14T07:22:54Z

I'll never let you see
The way my broken heart is hurting me
I've got my pride and I know how to hide
All my sorrow and pain
I'll do my crying in the rain

If I wait for stormy skies
You won't know the rain from the tears in my eyes
You'll never know that I still love you so
Though the heartaches remain
I'll do my crying in the rain

Raindrops falling from heaven
Could never take away my misery
But since we're not together
I pray for stormy weather
To hide these tears I hope you'll never see

Someday when my crying's done
I'm gonna wear a smile and walk in the sun
I may be a fool
But till then, darling, you'll never see me complain
I'll do my crying in the rain

I'll do my crying in the rain
I
(a-ha)

Irgendwas bleibt

ashaangel — 2009-02-03T17:23:01Z

Sag mir, daß dieser Ort hier sicher ist,
und alles Gute steht hier still.
Und dass das Wort, das du mir heute gibst,
morgen noch genauso gilt.
Diese Welt ist schnell
und hat verlernt beständig zu sein.
Denn Versuchungen setzen ihre Frist.
Doch bitte schwör, dass wenn ich wiederkomm,
alles noch beim Alten ist.

Gib mir n kleines bisschen Sicherheit,
in einer Welt in der nichts sicher scheint.
Gib mir in dieser schweren Zeit irgendwas das bleibt.
Gib mir einfach nur n bisschen Halt,
und wieg mich einfach nur in Sicherheit.
Hol mich aus dieser schnellen Zeit,
nimm mir ein bisschen Geschwindigkeit.
Gib mir was, irgendwas das bleibt.

Auch wenn die Welt den Verstand verliert,
das hier bleibt unberührt.
Nichts passiert.

Gib mir n kleines bisschen Sicherheit,
in einer Welt in der nichts sicher scheint.
Gib mir in dieser schweren Zeit irgendwas das bleibt.
Gib mir einfach nur n bisschen Halt,
und wieg mich einfach nur in Sicherheit.
Hol mich aus dieser schnellen Zeit,
nimm mir ein bisschen Geschwindigkeit.
Gib mir was, irgendwas das bleibt.

(Silbermond)

Up all night

ashaangel — 2009-01-25T14:44:20Z

It's 3 AM and I have been in my head for quite some time
Every fear, every tear has been swirling in my mind
And there are still a hundred reasons I shouldn't walk away
Do I love you if I leave you? You have no name

I was up all night
Waiting for some kind of miracle
I was up all night
Feeling all alone in the universe
I was up all night

When morning comes, I will tell you it's life I have to chase
But every song that I sing will be written by your face
And if you're really meant to be then you'll be back again
And I watch as your beginning turns into the end

I was up all night
Waiting for some kind of miracle
I was up all night
Feeling all alone in the universe
If it's you or if it's me I save
I'm still throwing it all away
I was up all night

With a kick inside in the dark you hide
And we both know how the end will be
In your little tide with your eyes shut wide
And we both know how the end will be
How it will be

I was up all night
Waiting for some kind of miracle
I was up all night
Feeling all alone in the universe
If it's you or if it's me I save
I'm still throwing it all away
I was up all night

(Charlotte Martin)

Without You

ashaangel — 2009-01-25T13:38:34Z

The sky opens up over me and you
And you don't seem to mind that we're soaked through
You kiss me in the rain, I forget what I'm moaning about
And I know I wouldn't be the same without you

I wouldn't be the same without you

I laugh at my own jokes and what I deem to be clever wit
And you don't seem to mind that I'm so stupid
You kiss me once again, I forget what I'm babbling about
And I know I wouldn't be the same without you

I couldn't replicate your touch or love anyone again this much
But I wouldn't be the same without you

I wouldn't be the same
Without you

(Brooke Fraser)

House of cards

ashaangel — 2009-01-25T12:02:55Z

I don't want to be your friend
I just want to be your lover
No matter how it ends
No matter how it starts

Forget about your house of cards
And I'll deal mine
Forget about your house of cards
And I'll deal mine

Fall off the table,
Get swept under
Denial, denial

The infrastructure will collapse
Voltage spikes
Throw your keys in the bowl

Kiss your husband goodnight

Forget about your house of cards
And I'll deal mine
Forget about your house of cards
And I'll deal mine

Fall off the table,
And get swept under

Denial, denial
Denial, denial
Your ears should be burning
Denial, denial
Your ears should be burning
Denial, denial

(Radiohead)

Orchester in mir

ashaangel — 2009-01-24T13:42:50Z

Ganz ohne Warnung treffe ich auf dich
Und du wirfst mich aus der Bahn
Konnte nicht ahnen dass das Leben
Mich auf einmal so verwirren kann
Ich krieg kaum Luft fühl mich verloren
Und vergesse was ich sagen will
Ist deine Nähe so berauschend dass
Mir davon ganz schwindlig ist
Zu allen anderen bin ich wahnsinnig charmant
Doch dich lieb ich lieber unerkannt

Ref:
Denn es spielt ein Orchester in mir
Wenn ich dich nur seh sind da 1000 Melodien
Und ich will es nicht mehr hören ich kann nicht mehr
Denn du gehörst zu ihr doch in all dem Lärm hier
Spielt ein Orchester in mir

Kommst auf mich zu
Ich tu ganz kalt und werd ich 100% ignorieren
Du sollst dir denken
Ich werd mich für deine Worte gar nicht interessieren
Es tut mir leid ich muss jetzt wirklich bald nach Haus
Und überhaupt ist diese Party für mich aus

Ref:
Denn es spielt ein Orchester in mir
Wenn ich dich nur seh sind da 1000 Melodien
Und ich will es nicht mehr hören ich kann nicht mehr
Denn du gehörst zu ihr doch in all dem Lärm hier
spielt ein Orchester in mir

Ich will dich einfach nur berühren
Möchte dich ganz nah hier bei mir spüren
Und wir lachen und weinen zusammen
Dabei ist mir bewusst
dass ich wieder zurück muss
Zurück ins hier

Ref:
Denn es spielt ein Orchester in mir
Wenn ichd ich nur seh sind da 1000 Melodien
Und ich will es nicht mehr hören ich kann nicht mehr
Denn du gehörst zu ihr doch in all dem Lärm hier
Spielt ein Orchester in mir....

(Christine Stürmer)

Near to you

ashaangel — 2009-01-23T09:07:58Z

He and I had something beautiful
But so dysfunctional, it couldn't last
I loved him so but I let him go
'Cause I knew he'd never love me back

Such pain as this
Shouldn't have to be experienced
I'm still reeling from the loss,
Still a little bit delirious

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

You and I have something different
And I'm enjoying it cautiously
I'm battle scarred, I am working oh so hard
To get back to who I used to be

He's disappearing
Fading subtly
I'm so close to being yours
Won't you stay with me
Please

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I am
Better where you are
I only know that I belong
Where you are

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
Though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone
And you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Yet, I'm better near to you.

Yet, I'm better near to you.

(A Fine Frenzy)

Unintended

ashaangel — 2009-01-23T09:06:42Z

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But Im busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

(Muse)

Weekly photo (5)

ashaangel — 2009-01-13T08:45:37Z

It's actually a joke that I call this the "weekly" photo. Every two months or so is more like it... :P

In any case...: arrival back in the UK

Heart vs. reason

ashaangel — 2009-01-13T08:37:57Z

The heart has its reasons of which reason knows nothing.

(Blaise Pascal)

Mint Car

ashaangel — 2009-01-13T08:37:17Z

The sun is up
I'm so happy I could scream!
And there's nowhere else in the world I'd rather be
Than here with you
It's perfect
It's all I ever wanted
I almost can't believe that it's for real

I really don't think it gets any better than this
Vanilla smile
And a gorgeous strawberry kiss!
Birds sing we swing
Clouds drift by and everything is like a dream
It's everything I wished

Never guessed it got this good
Wondered if it ever would
Really didn't think it could
Do it again?
I know we should!!!

The sun is up
I'm so fizzy I could burst!
You wet through and me headfirst
Into this is perfect
It's all I ever wanted
Ow! It feels so big it almost hurts!

Never guessed it got this good
Wondered if it ever would
Really didn't think it could
Do it some more?
I know we should!!!
Say it will always be like this
The two of us together
It will always be like this
Forever and ever and ever...

Never guessed it got this good
Wondered if it ever would
Really didn't think it could
Do it all the time?
I know that we should!!!

(The Cure)

Why am I giving up so much (and all the things I care for) for a career that makes...

ashaangel — 2009-01-12T20:49:58Z

Why am I giving up so much (and all the things I care for) for a career that makes me have to deal with all of these problems here?
Sometimes I really wanna quit science...

Cocoon

ashaangel — 2009-01-12T20:41:21Z

Well based on your smile
I'm betting all of this
Might be over soon
But you're bound to win
Cause if I'm betting against you
I think I'd rather lose
But this is all that I have

So please
Take what's left of this heart and use
Please use only what you really need
You know I only have so little
So please
Mend your broken heart and leave

I know it's not your style
I can tell by the way that you move
It's real, real soon
But I'm on your side
And I don't want to be your regret
I'd rather be your cocoon
But this is all that you have

So please
Let me take what's left of your heart and I will use
I swear I'll use only what I need
I know you only have so little
So please
Let me mend my broken heart and

You said this was all you had
And it's all I need
But blah blah blah
Because it fell apart and
I guess it's all you knew
And all I have
But now we have
Only confused hearts and
I guess all we have
Is really all we need

So please
Let's take these broken hearts and use
Let's use only what we really need
You know we only have so little
So please
Take these broken hearts and leave

(Jack Johnson)

Heart of mine

ashaangel — 2008-10-13T11:00:17Z

Heart of mine
be still
You can play with fire
But you'll get the bill
Don't let him know
Don't let him know that you love him
Oh, don't be a fool, don't be blind
Heart of mine

Heart of mine
Go back home
You've got no reason to wander
No reason to roam
Don't let him see
Don't let him see that you need him
Oh, don't push yourself over the line
Heart of mine

Heart of mine,
Go back where you been
The only trouble with you
Is if you let him in
Don't let him hear
Don't let him hear where you're goin'
Oh, I'm tired of ties that bind
Heart of mine

Heart of mine,
So malicious and so full of guile
I give you an inch
And you take a mile
Don't let yourself fall
Don't let yourself stumble
Oh, do the time, don't do the crime
Heart of mine

Heart of mine...

(Norah Jones)